Hug in action :’”)
photo credit: Kristen
We’ll start off with a teary photo of graduation :”)
pretty much explains what happened during pictures lol
photo credit: Carolineeee <3
DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL!!!! BRAWLED OCEANS OF TEARS BUT IT’S COOL!
I’m going to sleep at 1AM pissed and mad. NO. I HATE GOING TO SLEEP MAD! NO NO! SLEEPING MAD THE NIGHT BEFORE MY GRADUATION! NO! and i have to wake up early tomorrow morning to go to the school’s stadium to practice…in the damn sun. -____- EVERYTHING IS MAKING ME MAD!
and i can’t use sunscreen ‘cause I’m allergic to spf. Splendid. Just splendid.
I seriously hate it when people look down on me. (not literally ‘cause everyone does that to me since I’m so short -___-). Do you think I’m not competent enough? I don’t have the will power? I’m not strong enough? Bitch, do not test me. I will fuck you up till you understand how good I am. Don’t act like you know my shit. Don’t even have the slightest doubt in what I can and cannot do. You don’t know me. What I do is nothing more or less than anything anyone else does. I value my actions and accomplishments. Don’t be shunning my time to fucking shine.
My graduation is tomorrow night. Don’t start shit with me about how I’m not in the “academically good” row. What kind of fucking shit are you pulling out of your stupid mouth? Excuse me but I feel as though ALL the rows that are graduating are all “academically good”. At least they’re actually graduating. Don’t even call the first row “academically good”. That is the shittiest way to describe overachieving scholars. Most, if not all, awards that will be honored tomorrow night will be awarded to the first 2 rows. So sorry if being in the 2nd row is not considered “academically good”. My bad if CSF Lifetime member, National Honor Society member, and perfect attendance all 4 years of high school isn’t good enough to be “academically good”.
Oh you’ve been to 3 graduations? Well my bad those schools didn’t have enough “academically good” students to fill in a second row. You obviously don’t know so STFU and GTFO.
and I still don’t feel it yet. It hasn’t hit me! WHY?! I just finished watching my friends from CN graduate….and…that’s going to be me tomorrow night. It still hasn’t hit me. Okay. I’m starting to get nervous…I’m going to finish the first chapter of my life. Tomorrow. I really hope all my friends and family can make it. I want to end this chapter with the beloved people in my life. Sadly, my whole family cannot attend, but they shall be there in spirit :)
Okay…enough for now or else I’ll start hyperventilating and cry lol.
DAMN YOU DRESS CODE! WTF! There are no dresses with 2 inch thick straps that look good. -___-. Shopped a couple of hours and only found one dress…which I like but….it’s not 2 inches thick. FUUUUUU. whatever, I’ll still check with the teacher. I really want the dress my friend from last year wore to graduation! I hate finding dresses last minute FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
Being a girl sucks.
Finally feeling that Senior fibe….but right when Senior year is over lol. At least I feel like a Senior. My parents finally let me go hang out with my friends….not only that but I get to hang out LATE! FUCK YES! With grad parties coming up, I’ll be partying it up LATE! I got to stay at a friend’s grad party from 6pm-12am. YES YES YES YES! And tonight I get to go out and eat dinner with my friends. YESSSS!
FINALLY! I FINALLY HAVE FREEDOM! It feels so good to hang out with friends. I sure have been missing out on a lot of fun throughout senior year but….hanging out with friends now is so much better. I don’t have to worry about homework, tests, or studying. I AM FREE! Gosh…I love this feeling.
When someone tells you you are their role model, that has to be one of the best moments. I’ve never been told that I’m someone’s role model, but I finally see it through the most touching, heart felt, warm letter I’ve ever received. My little baby Caroline wrote me a full page letter of her true thoughts and feelings about me. All this time I thought I was just being nice and friendly, befriending a new buddy to make her days brighter. Never did I know I’d have such an impact on another being.
To be able to be the inspiration for someone to become stronger and braver is absolutely amazing. To be the reason why they’ve become more social and friendly towards others is astonishing.This is such an honor. I never knew that the little things I did mattered so much to other people. I’ve always been so crazy, hyper, and outgoing. Who knew that my everyday actions could change a person? Who knew being there for someone at their break point, would create the strongest bond between yourselves? I’m honored to be someone’s role model. I’ve finally done something right in my life. This feeling….the feeling of helping someone back up after they’ve been on the ground for the longest time they could remember…this feelings is beyond words.
To positively influence someone’s life, now that’s living life.
I can’t do this. Today was the last day for Seniors. It didn’t hit me until after school when all my baby underclassmen ambushed me to sign their yearbook pages. It’s done. It’s over. There’s no more high school for me. I’m leaving all this behind. I don’t want to. I can’t handle this. I’m not ready to leave. Can we all just stop time and relive our memories?
I’m not ready to leave high school. I admit it. I mean, when I started high school I couldn’t wait for it to end. But now that it’s the end…I still want it to continue. I can’t imagine myself NOT in high school. I’m still a child, oblivious of the real world out there. I can’t handle what all the world has to throw at me. Please, just slow everything down. I need time to mature. I can’t imagine myself leaving my friends and family. The main reason I get through my days are because of them. The big world out there isn’t ready for me. I’m going to be a rotten vegetable in a garden. I won’t do anyone any good when I leave.
If only this world had no “goodbyes” or “farewells”.